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Blood on Her Tongue by Johanna van Veen

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dark mysterious tense fast-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Yes
Diverse cast of characters: Yes
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

i ate this book up, the spicy bits added a lot for me.
i like how they tied queerness to mental illness, not once but twice. as recognized back in that time. i wasn’t expecting it at all.
very good read with wonderful pace. 

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Plot or Character Driven: Plot
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Complicated
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

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dark emotional tense medium-paced
Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: Complicated
Flaws of characters a main focus: Complicated

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Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: Complicated
Flaws of characters a main focus: Complicated


historical Gothic horror is definitely a genre i didn't think I'd touch to be honest, but I was drawn in by the pretty dog on the cover (pasja). I was gripped in by the question of, what was really happening or was it all in the main character (Lucy's) head? the combination of mental health mistreatment of the later years and the prospects of a parasite taking over (vampirism) it definitely gives nosferatu vibes. I will advise that some scenes are not for the weak stomached, I had to put this book down a lot to keep myself from being sick; with that being said, I've never liked gore and I still kept reading. this book is nuts, but was very enjoyable for those who love a good vampire historical tale!

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Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

Blood on Her Tongue was one of the most anticipated reads of the year and I can say that it did not disappoint me.

I REALLY liked the atmosphere and the author's writing in this book. Apart from the part about the asylums, which is not entirely true to period the story is on (but the author made this very clear in one of her interviews), I think that van Heen managed to perfectly convey the gothic and disgusting tone of the time.

And all the credit goes to Johanna's writing, which managed to capture so well the small details that paint a vivid picture of the time and the sinister world that the characters find themselves in. All the descriptions of smells, feelings and textures are rich enough to keep you hooked on the story, but without embellishments that make the reading exhausting with the speech of the time.

I can see the criticism when some people say that the characters serve specific roles and seem to have no other desires, but I honestly didn't mind that.
I find the discussion of the role of women when we talk about their feelings and madness extremely interesting.

It was very interesting for me to see the dynamics between the four main characters.

We have Sarah, the sister with a dominant role, the determined woman, smarter than many men and also a sapphic woman. Three things that are not well regarded by society at the time.
Lucy, the submissive, quiet sister, but no less observant than her twin.
Michael, Sarah's husband, the typical misogynist.
Arthur, the doctor who is the twins' childhood friend, but who belittles their feelings when they are placed above his own.

I think it's cool how the author decided to treat the sisters' relationship, as well as that of the men.

Lucy doesn't live much beyond the self-imposed role of Sarah's shadow. The author comments in an interview that it is intentional the way Lucy becomes a completely different person when she sees her life and dynamic with Sarah threatened by other people. Having lived with twin cousins, I understand the relationship.

The dynamic between Michael and Arthur was also interesting to me. Arthur supposedly hates Michael, but they get together whenever they feel their masculinity is affected. Michael feels that the suffering of others is actually less than his, and Arthur puts his wishes above others, even if it means the detriment of the twins' feelings.

The part that I like most about these relationships is the way that anger and feminine feelings are confused with insanity throughout the reading.

The twins' aunt was put in a mental institution when her girlfriend left and she felt the weight of loneliness. The sapphic role in the book is not the focus, but it is another of the things that was not tolerated at the time.

The parts that stuck with me the most are those in which Lucy's opinions are treated with condescension.

Even when she commits crimes at the end, it is impossible for the characters to understand that it was not Sarah, the more assertive sister, who committed them.

This is a topic discussed in Tori Telfer's "Lady Killers", which opens up discussions about how several female serial killers managed to go unnoticed for so long precisely because the people around them did not believe in the type of planning that women calculate, and not only because of their feelings.
Female rage as hysteria and the inability to see their sinister words as a marker for their future actions.

In addition to these discussions, the supernatural side of the book is a delight. I LOVED the way the author talks about the mystery of bog bodies here and how she portrays vampirism more as a parasitic relationship than a supernatural one. Sarah doesn't act like a regular vampire and I was super intrigued by everything she did. The way she acts and how the parasite behaves are super interesting.

I really like the direction of the story, despite it being predictable.

With all this, I would already be satisfied with the book, but I think my favorite part is the same thing that fascinated me so much in Soma, the 2015 horror game.

The way of dealing with existence is very similar in both works and I'm completely crazy about this portrayal of existential dread. In the game, the characters live on an uninhabitable Earth and in order to be transported to space, they need to make copies of themselves, often leaving their past selves behind.
In Blood on Her Tongue, the parasite's relationship with Sarah is almost the same.
She dies and the parasite takes over, even though it still has Sarah's memories and feelings.

The question of "if you were copied (and in this book, taken over by another living being), would you still be you?" is one of the questions I love to debate the most.

I can never find a definitive answer and I find this subject extremely complex.

If a parasite takes over your body, but still has your memories and feelings, are you the parasite or do you no longer exist? If it takes over your brain, is it still yours, even with your past self in it? If our memories make us us, what happens if another being takes over our memories and acts like us, inside our own bodies? If we are no longer ourselves, what exactly died so we can say that we no longer exist?

The main character of Soma, Simon, at a certain point in the game (it is not the end of the game!) copies himself into another body and has to let his other self die, just as Sarah exists even after she dies.
This brief moment when there are two versions of a single person is very fascinating to me. I still can't find the line between what makes a person who they are when there is a "before" and an "after" coexisting.


I could talk about this subject for HOURS. The book is extremely well written and I would have enjoyed it anyway, but it also happened to have one of my favorite subjects.

For those who like a book with family relationships, a gothic atmosphere, vampires, lots of gore and writing that transports you back in time, I highly recommend Blood on Her Tongue. For those who like to wonder about our existence the book also sprinkles some of this debate in the mix.

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Plot or Character Driven: Character
Strong character development: No
Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

I wanted to absolutely love this book. Unfortunately it just didn’t click with me. It was often very slow moving and I found myself questioning where the story could go. I could not stand Lucy or Sarah. Lucy is obsessed with her sister to an extremely disturbing level and I found myself just questioning everything. This was set in 1887 Netherlands but was written in today’s modern language and it felt a bit disjointed. 

This is just my opinion and I still recommend giving this a read if it sounds like your cup of tea. 



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Strong character development: Yes
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

The characters are hardly that lovable, but you can’t help but root for them in the very end. I admit  the last part of the book made me like them a little more, but just barely so. Either way I adore the ending and the entire journey was dark, eerie, and disturbing. It was a fantastic ride, and a great take on vampirism. 

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Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

Not exactly what I expected! I liked that this was a vampire book but with a special twist that added a certain uniqueness to such a common concept.

This book started off slow for me and I wasn't sure if I was going to enjoy it. If you feel that way, give it a chance because it really does pick up. The writing was beautiful, atmospheric, and unsettling. I loved reading about the bog and as weird as this is, the autopsied body. There was so much mystery surrounding the state of the body that was found.

The characters were complicated. I really couldn't decide if I liked them or not. I'm also never really a fan of infidelity under any circumstances unless there's a case of domestic abuse where the victim can't physically leave their abuser. But this wasn't that. The characters as a whole were generally unlikable. Specifically the male characters. I was confused on how to view Sarah throughout this story too.

Which feeds into my next point about the personal touch that this book took on vampirism. This wasn't a classic case of vampirism and I won't spoil it for you if you don't want to know. For those of you that are interested:
this book takes on what they call a "tick." It has vampiric traits but it's more accurate to call it a parasite. The "tick" latches onto its host and essentially takes over the host's body. It consumes the memories of the host, basically becoming the essence of its victim.
This is what had me so conflicted about
Sarah. While it had consumed all of Sarah's memories and took on her traits, it still wasn't "Sarah." But what makes a person who they are? Their thoughts and memories? Lucy found herself struggling with this concept and I thought it was extremely interesting.


I also have to mention the gorgeous cover on this! The edition that I own has splayed edges with blood drips down the side. I'm obsessed!

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Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: No
Diverse cast of characters: Complicated
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

*Thank you to Poisoned Pen Press and NetGalley for the e-ARC! All opinions are my own.*

This book was a RIDE. I had to sit with it for a couple days before reviewing to collect my thoughts. I definitely enjoyed my time reading this book. It was twisty and more than once, I found myself physically tensing up and having to catch my breath while reading which is always a good sign. It’s unique in its tone and I’m far-stretched to think of a read alike in my personal experience. This book is fast-paced, the characters are complex and engaging (and next to impossible to like almost the entire time - by design, of course). The descent into madness that occurs throughout this plot is a marvel to watch. There’s themes of codependency, adultery, narcissism, and some just plain gross body horror. It also gave me some freaky dreams if I read a lil too close to bedtime - another good sign of a good creepy story. 

Definitely not a book I’d go recommending to just anyone, but I will absolutely be keeping it in my back pocket. 

Is it perfect? Most certainly not. The writing can get a *little* repetitive if you’re paying too close attention - Johanna likes certain phrases and that shows. But the reality of reading, at least for me, is that sometimes shit like that just doesn’t matter.

SO. In conclusion, proceed with caution but my god have a funky freaky good time. 

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Plot or Character Driven: A mix
Strong character development: Complicated
Loveable characters: Complicated
Diverse cast of characters: No
Flaws of characters a main focus: Yes

Thanks NetGalley for the arc!

Read this one if you love The Fall of the House of Usher by Edgar Allen Poe, Dracula, T. Kingfishers works and books like Leech by Hiron Ennes.

Summary:
Sarah, Lucys twin sister, discovers a bog body on the grounds of her estate. Fascinated by the morbid and in love with with science, she becomes obsessed with the "bog woman", watching her autopsy and mentioning her frantically in writing to her sister. Two weeks later, Lucy receives a letter letting her know that her sister is plagues by a sickness - similar to a burst "insanity" that has befallen her once before.
After the commitment of their aunt to a mental asylum, Sarah and Lucy are deathly afraid of the same future awaiting Sarah.
Lucy rushes to Sarahs sickbed, but it becomes more and more clear that some kinds of sickness cannot be healed - if you could even call Sarahs state of mind a sickness...

This one was fabulous. Lovely writing fitting for a novel set in the 19th century, a moody atmosphere found in the wetlands of the Netherlands, enticing, yet not always likeable characters and a healthy heap of eeriness made this book a lovely blend of everything slightly unsettling. I would not say this book is gruesome psycho horror, but it is definitely not for the faint of mind (or stomach.)
Between the chapters, we often find letters or articles giving us more insight in the characters and their surroundings. Whilst the twins were generally very loving towards each other, they both had huge flaws which made the book even more believable and interesting. Intersected with thoughts of the pull between whats wrong and what feels right, mostly our main characters have a lot of depth. Be warned that men, especially in the nineteenth century, were awful, so if you feel uncomfortable reading about a man thinking of an independent woman as unnatural, maybe skip this one (but remember that this also entails reading about badass independen.
I loved this slightly different interpretation of vampirism and enjoyed discovering every piece of information we could get our hands on.

This book was moody, eerie, fascinating and creepy - and I loved all of it!

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