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amberjackonski's review against another edition
challenging
dark
emotional
reflective
sad
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? No
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
3.5
Content Warnings
Graphic: Murder, Domestic abuse, Animal death, and Animal cruelty
vanessa_black_03's review against another edition
adventurous
challenging
dark
emotional
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? No
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
This book will make you think and think. It should be read by everybody who has ever thought about the person behind the unmistakable cloud of death by a killer.
Shows us how circumstances lend to our making but justifying anything you do with it and not acknoledging a problem within you is all that makes the difference
Shows us how circumstances lend to our making but justifying anything you do with it and not acknoledging a problem within you is all that makes the difference
Content Warnings
Graphic: Animal cruelty, Physical abuse, Sexual content, Addiction, Alcohol, Death, Medical trauma, Abandonment, Child abuse, Gore, Suicide, Medical content, Murder, Death of parent, Domestic abuse, Animal death, and Emotional abuse
Moderate: Blood and Stalking
Minor: Car accident
shostakofish's review
dark
emotional
sad
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.5
I have a complicated relationship with True Crime style media. One the one hand: It's deeply interesting and a look into very real issues society sometimes would rather ignore. On the other hand it's rife with exploitation, and often falls into the trap of glorifying male violence and reducing women to objects violence is inflicted on.
This book does a fantastic job avoiding those pitfalls. It takes a nuanced look at a killer and the women in his life including those he kills. Every single one is shown as a full human, with their first person perspectives allowing for depth and introspection. Each character is biased in their own realistic ways but the book as a whole takes a determinately neutral stance on the issues it brings up, allowing the reader to form their own opinions on things like male violence, the prison system and death penalty, mental health support, and media for murder.
This book does a fantastic job avoiding those pitfalls. It takes a nuanced look at a killer and the women in his life including those he kills. Every single one is shown as a full human, with their first person perspectives allowing for depth and introspection. Each character is biased in their own realistic ways but the book as a whole takes a determinately neutral stance on the issues it brings up, allowing the reader to form their own opinions on things like male violence, the prison system and death penalty, mental health support, and media for murder.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Racism, Sexism, Death, Racial slurs, Animal cruelty, Animal death, Stalking, and Murder
withloveandlights's review
Learned of the extensive animal cruelty within the book as well as not feeling comfortable continuing the book
Content Warnings
Graphic: Animal cruelty and Animal death
misssleepy's review
dark
emotional
reflective
sad
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? It's complicated
4.5
I have seen this book on book tok several times. I submitted it as a recommendation for the Merc 20-Something book club and it was picked.
I loved this book. It was very reflective and it challenges how society glorifies serial killers by reflecting on the lives of 3 women that intersected with this serial killer, Ansel Packer.
The women in this story are written beautifully. They are raw and they are flawed and they are so deeply human.
When I started reading this book, I did get nervous that I would find myself sympathizing with Ansel and I was really resistant to that feeling. Having finished the book, I realize that my nerves were a manifestation of conflicted feelings. There were fleeting moments of sympathy, but also hatred, pain, anger, dismay, and embarrassment.
There is a lot to feel conflicted about. The idea of nature vs nurture, the morality of the death penalty, the internal struggle of good vs evil, the idea that everyone is loved on some level regardless of their atrocities. The authors did an amazing job of forcing the reading to reckon with all of these contradictory themes while still providing the reader space to form their own opinions.
Also shout out to Shawna for playing Ansel like a fiddle.
This book reminded me in some ways of Bright Young Women. It is very much a commentary that it isn’t the men that murder that deserve our energy and admiration, but the women whose lives were taken from them. That victims are more than their ending, that they are complex and vibrant. The author reflects on what their lives could have been and could’ve meant to the world.
The exploration of Ansel’s relationship with Blue was one of the more contradictory plot lines of the book for me. I think it’s important to show the humanity in all people, even killers like Ansel and how the choices they make can have such devastating impacts to people who do view them from a place of goodness. I also thought the juxtaposition of that relationship to Saffy’s longing for family and her search for her father was deeply touching, and a bit haunting.
I just have to complain about how often the authors described character’s breath as sour. Okay good to get off my chest.
10/10 would recommend!
I loved this book. It was very reflective and it challenges how society glorifies serial killers by reflecting on the lives of 3 women that intersected with this serial killer, Ansel Packer.
The women in this story are written beautifully. They are raw and they are flawed and they are so deeply human.
When I started reading this book, I did get nervous that I would find myself sympathizing with Ansel and I was really resistant to that feeling. Having finished the book, I realize that my nerves were a manifestation of conflicted feelings. There were fleeting moments of sympathy, but also hatred, pain, anger, dismay, and embarrassment.
There is a lot to feel conflicted about. The idea of nature vs nurture, the morality of the death penalty, the internal struggle of good vs evil, the idea that everyone is loved on some level regardless of their atrocities. The authors did an amazing job of forcing the reading to reckon with all of these contradictory themes while still providing the reader space to form their own opinions.
Also shout out to Shawna for playing Ansel like a fiddle.
This book reminded me in some ways of Bright Young Women. It is very much a commentary that it isn’t the men that murder that deserve our energy and admiration, but the women whose lives were taken from them. That victims are more than their ending, that they are complex and vibrant. The author reflects on what their lives could have been and could’ve meant to the world.
The exploration of Ansel’s relationship with Blue was one of the more contradictory plot lines of the book for me. I think it’s important to show the humanity in all people, even killers like Ansel and how the choices they make can have such devastating impacts to people who do view them from a place of goodness. I also thought the juxtaposition of that relationship to Saffy’s longing for family and her search for her father was deeply touching, and a bit haunting.
I just have to complain about how often the authors described character’s breath as sour. Okay good to get off my chest.
10/10 would recommend!
Content Warnings
Graphic: Animal death and Domestic abuse
Moderate: Murder
bexgil's review
challenging
dark
emotional
reflective
slow-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? No
- Diverse cast of characters? No
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
2.5
Content Warnings
Graphic: Death and Murder
Moderate: Animal cruelty and Animal death
geminireader's review
dark
emotional
mysterious
tense
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? Yes
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
A deeply challenging, disturbing novel. Undoubtedly worth the read. I don’t think I need to delve into it more; the synopsis perfectly covers what is about and how thought-provoking it is.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Child abuse, Animal death, Physical abuse, Animal cruelty, Death, Sexism, Violence, Abandonment, and Misogyny
emiliegrace's review against another edition
challenging
dark
emotional
sad
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Wow what a truly poignantly heavy read. Kukafka expertly navigates the telling of Ansel’s story through the eyes of the women so deeply affected by his actions and the age old discussion of good vs evil - all while casting a scrutinizing glance at the American justice system. The women become the main characters in what would otherwise be another true crime look at a serial killer’s psyche, and by focusing on these women, Kukafka explores the depth of how they are individually affected by their own choices and the choices of others. The exploration of the way our choices splinter our lives into endless different paths was unexpected, but a theme I greatly appreciated throughout the women’s stories as well as Ansel’s own death row reflections. I found myself aching for the pain that Lavender felt at the hands of her husband, while recognizing and resenting her choice of abandoning her children in order to save herself. I found myself devastated in Hazel’s recognition that she would forever be shadowed by the death of her twin sister. But I found myself most pleased with the outcome of Saffy’s story. Her unsuredness in herself that dissolves into a steadfast and primal need to seek justice - only for that justice to then ultimately feel unsatisfying and flawed (as our system often is). Truly a masterful exploration of tragedy and its effects on humanity.
Content Warnings
Graphic: Animal death, Violence, Murder, and Domestic abuse
canderssss's review
dark
emotional
reflective
sad
tense
fast-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? A mix
- Strong character development? Yes
- Loveable characters? No
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
5.0
Content Warnings
Graphic: Murder, Sexual assault, Abandonment, Child abuse, Death, and Animal death
arayo's review
dark
emotional
mysterious
reflective
medium-paced
- Plot- or character-driven? Character
- Strong character development? It's complicated
- Loveable characters? It's complicated
- Diverse cast of characters? Yes
- Flaws of characters a main focus? Yes
4.25
Content Warnings
Moderate: Domestic abuse, Murder, Drug abuse, Abandonment, Violence, Grief, Death of parent, Death, Child abuse, and Confinement
Minor: Alcoholism, Animal cruelty, Sexual content, Sexual assault, Animal death, Suicidal thoughts, Racism, and Pregnancy