yvrowe 's review for:

Hell Followed with Us by Andrew Joseph White
5.0

Please pay attention to the content warnings on this one, but wow! What a ride!

Benji is a trans boy who carries a plague within him. We go along on his journey to unpack so much religious trauma to find freedom. It is such a dark story, with so much violence and murder. No one has clean hands in this one, but it is an apocalyptic survival story driven by the characters. A lot of the queer stories I'm seeing are romance ones, and yes, those are nice but dang, this one was just so... beautiful. There's so many levels of queer representation here, thanks to survivors living in the local LGBTQ+ Center, and Autism rep. My words are failing because there's no way I can do this book justice.

Benji is a fantastic character. Raised in a Christian cult, he finds a new group of friends that allow him to explore his beliefs, even as he becomes a monster. He still prays, but finds a level of belief that is comfortable for him and not as... murdery as the cult. He continues on, living with the religious trauma, the trauma of seeing his father murdered in front of him, of being misgendered, of knowing there's a virus inside him that's a ticking time bomb, and yet, he acts with hope, with kindness, taking time to learn everyone's pronouns, respecting boundaries. I love Benji so much.

Thank you Netgalley for access to the arc.