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Us Against You by Fredrik Backman

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4.0

★★★.5 rounded up!

”The complicated thing about good and bad people alike is that most of us can be both at the same time.”


the 2nd book of beartown was good, but i felt myself getting bored. at times it was very sad and frustrating but i can see how someone would like this. i just really enjoyed the first book better. hopefully the final one will live up to the first

also i love benji
Unravel Me by Tahereh Mafi

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4.0

★★★★

"So much of it was like seeing myself on paper," "Like reading all the things I never knew how to say."


juliette was so insufferable this book like there were so many times i wanted to punch this woman iN THE FACE. so glad kenji and castle put her in HER PLACEE. hoping so badly she goes full girlboss in the next book.

loved aaron and kenji so bad c':
Ignite Me by Tahereh Mafi

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5.0

★★★★★

"If you hide your heart, he will never be able to take it from you."


IDEK WHERE TO START BC THIS BOOK HAS TO BE THE BEST ONE IN THE SERIES SO FAR! read this in one sitting from midnight to 8am with my bestie!!!

juliette was significantly less annoying and i gained so much more respect for her in this one. one might even say i love her now. so glad she gave her whiny behavior to adam and decided to go all girl boss. she is SOOO BADASS IN THIS BOOK HOT DAMN!!!

oh god and adam HE WAS ABSOLUTELY TERRIBLE IN THIS. reallyy solidified himself into the POS that he is.

and aaron.. oh aaron… i knew i would love him even from the first book, but this book really did it for me. i understand why the book community loves him so much. he managed to make me sob multiple times in this book. I LOVE HIM MOM I REALLY DO!
WHY AM I SOOOO HAPPY LIKE THIS BOOK WAS PERFECT!!!
Shadow Me by Tahereh Mafi

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5.0

★★★★★

”It’s not the pain that’s unendurable. It’s the hopelessness. It’s the hopelessness that makes you reckless.”


the novella EVERYONE was waiting for!!! god i love kenji soooo much PROTECT THAT BOY!!!

his inner monologue is truly so remarkable and i love his interactions with NAZEERA and aaron
Restore Me by Tahereh Mafi

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5.0

★★★★★

”In the steady thrum that accompanies quiet, my mind is unkind to me.”


OH MAH GAWDDDDD!!! i was soooo unprepared for what this book was about to do to me.

kenji and aaron were just as lovely as they were in the previous book, if not more!! i loved their lil frenemy situation going on. glad aaron and adam were able to bond over their traumas.

juliette staying naive.

absolutely loved warnette being domestic and corny aweeee.

LOVED NAZEERA TOO I HOPE TO SEE MORE OF HER IN THE FUTUREEEE!

god all the new revelations and discoveries were so scary and
SpoilerJULIETTE COMPLETELY ANNIHILATING OVER 600 PEOPLE?!?
SpoilerAND THE FUCKING PLOT TWISTS!?!? MY BRAIN HURTS AND IM SPEECHLESS OMGGG


can’t wait to READ THE NEXT BOOKS AHHHHHH!!!
Defy Me by Tahereh Mafi

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5.0

★★★★★

”Today is not forever. Happiness does not happen. Happiness must be uncovered, separated from the skin of pain. It must be claimed. Kept close. Protected.”


another 5 star WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNN!!!! this book ripped me apart and stitched it all up in less than 360 pages. the pain i felt reading this was terrible.

i love aaron… I LOVE AARON SO MUCH IDEK HOW TO BEGIN I JUST LOVE HIM IM STILL. CRYING

AND KENJI!!!!!!! FUQQ

desperately hoping we can end anderson once and for all in the conclusions PLEASEEEE!
Pack Up the Moon by Kristan Higgins

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5.0

★★★★.5 ROUNDED UP!!!

“The sadness shouldn’t cancel out what had been so bright and full and beautiful. Just because the cherry blossoms would fall didn’t mean you should mourn them on the tree.”


i don't even know where to start with this book. like...

i started this in january and the reason it took me so long to read it is because it was sooo sad and heartbreaking that i would have to take week breaks at a time bc of how heavy it was.

the one thing i love about this book is that it focuses on the grief someone experiences AFTER the person dies. this book did that, but also included snippets of time before death. usually books just build up to the characters death, which is all the more heartbreaking. but reading and experiencing joshua's grief with him over the course of a year tore me apart. physically ripped me to pieces.

im pretty sure i cried every time i picked up this book. it was difficult to read this in one go bc i was just not mentally there and i knew it would break me. this is a 5 star book but because i am not gods strongest soldier and an empath i almost gave it 4 stars bc of how long it took me to read all of it. but i only have myself to blame for that.

truly beautiful, love in its purest form, raw and heartbreaking, tragic, healing, and inspiring.
The Winners by Fredrik Backman

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5.0

★★★★.5 rounded up!

We try to just live our lives, live with each other, live with ourselves. Accepting joy when we find it, bearing grief when it finds us, and being amazed at our children's happiness without falling apart when we think that we can never really protect them.


i have been emotional asf recently, so when i opened to the first page of the book, I STARTED SOBBING! i was intimidated by the page count but i feel like it was an appropriate length for everything that happened here. it was steady for most of the book, and then during the final quarter it just started getting really tense.

i don't think i've experienced this much anxiety and chest pain while reading a book. it was intense and even as im writing this i feel so uneasy. numb.
i am completely gutted.

Spoilerbenjamin ovich i love you so much. you deserved everything and more in the world and i hope with my entire heart that you are safe and happy.
Imagine Me by Tahereh Mafi

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4.0

★★★★

“You've always known me, love. I've always known you. And I'm so-I'm so desperately in love with you-”


this book left me with a lot of questions and uncertainties. it was hard to imagine really what was going on at times. there was so much going on and was really messy but i still enjoyed it! not as strong as the last 3 were tho

but nonetheless, kenji CARRIED!!!!