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Alias Grace by Margaret Atwood

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5.0

the journey to the end was amazing and the quilt. yes
Antigone by Sophocles

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5.0

????????? i have no words i am just. my thoughts are summed up in this set of comparison and why it's so effective in making me just wanna weep.

ANTIGONE:
But leave me to my own absurdity, leave me
to suffer this—dreadful thing. I will suffer
nothing as great as death without glory.


/

TIRESIAS (to CREON):
...Stubbornness
brands you for stupidity—pride is a crime.
No, yield to the dead!
Never stab the fighter when he's down.
Where's the glory, killing the dead twice over?


p.s. haemon is bae and i'm so sad that he died. rip to the most decent guy in this play
The Abundance: Narrative Essays Old and New by Annie Dillard

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5.0

loved the qur'an references, loved the writing, love annie dillard writing about space

my only beef with this book is that section in newborn and salted argh. still :/ it's a good book
The Sorrow Proper by Lindsey Drager

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5.0

Grief without an axis, Harriet says. That's the worst kind.

the juxtaposition between the closing of the library and the romance unfolding here was really beautiful and this is the kind of romance i imagine im in tbh... quiet and soft. i loved the deaf mathematician, she was an amazing character and though i truly love the quartet of librarians (though harriet is my SWEET) and the photographer, damn, i really fell in love w/ her, her thoughts and ideas and who she is.

even tho this book is non-linear u sometimes get that moment where it all clicks and you're just mouthing to yourself "oh. oh"

honestly my only kinda grip is how pretentious the photographer is in his last exhibition we see lol like
Spoilerhe's not even that deep when she dies in that branch of many-worlds damnt


also there are veryveryvery important pages on the deafness/hard of hearing issue that will make u smile a lil because of how true it is and how candid the deaf mathematician is about it. my one true bae
Describe to me silence, he asks.

She pulls the cigarette out of his mouth and helps herself a drag before grinding it into the tray. Then she says, I don't know what that is.
debu, duka, dsb. : Sebuah Pertimbangan Anti-Theodise by Goenawan Mohamad

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4.0

4.5 because of my he goes really off-tangent at times, but what kinda amazing off-tangents they were. really helped me in understanding my relationship w/ God. what do i even say!!! it's just so good.

Manusia, dalam debu dan duka, dalam status sebagai zat dalam dalam kehilangan, dan pada saat yang sama sebagai makhluk yang ditempa sejarah yang menyebabkan ia "menerima segala", adalah hasil tafsir yang tak terhingga karena ia sebuah kontradiksi. Ia tak mudah menerima ini. Ia menginginkan kontradiksi itu tak ada. Maka lahirlah ideologi, hukum, agama dalam bentuk sebagai kesatuan - dan juga theodise.

Humans, covered in dust and grief, in a status as matter and in loss, and at the same time as a being forged by history that causes them to "accept all that is", is a result of a limited interpretation because it is a contradiction. They cannot accept this easily. They want that contradiction to begone. And so that is why ideology, justice, and religion was born in unity - and so was theodicy.


personal translation don't h8
The Blindfolded Queen: a collection of poems by Goenawan Mohamad

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5.0

honestly i focused more on the indonesian poems (so that five-star rating is more on the actual poems than the translation) but wow goddamn it was amazing. i'm... so glad i finally got to pick it up and read it. his constant imagery with ruang dan waktu (space and time) gets me!!!! so much!!! and the stars, also. A+

but of course, regarding the translation: some of it doesn't really do it justice, but amalia (ed.: marji suandra)'s translations tho!!!! espc for 'gandari'!!!!! it was so good i'm gonna cry!!! lend me your translating skills

favorites include: di beranda ini angin tak kedengaran lagi, afterword, potret taman untuk allen ginsberg*, waktu adalah mesin hitung, lanskap, perempuan yang dirajam menjelang malam, zagreb, di pasar loak, perempuan itu menggerus garam, sirkus, bintang pagi, di sebuah juni, oedipus, nuh, pernah, firman ke-12, taman, februari, di elsinore, gandari, di mercu suar, & tentang maut.

* !!! THIS POEM WAS DRIPPING IN SARCASTIC VENOM FOR RACIST WHITE PPL IM SO MAD THAT THE TRANSLATION DOESN'T DO IT JUSTICE
The Walls Around Us by Nova Ren Suma

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5.0

the blurb isn't kidding when they say the prose sings word to word because my skin crawled with how raw it is

& im just left gaping, speechless, because it's so?????? and i love it so?????? much????

probavly should be more coherent but
Night Sky with Exit Wounds by Ocean Vuong

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5.0

yes, i filled 3 pages full in my journal cramped handwriting and all, and yes, i am crying, and yes, i might do a blog post about this but goodreads isn't a good place for this but yes, i am in love and can finally declare myself an actual ocean vuong fan with reading an actual book instead of just samples online
Fake Knife by Dalton Day

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5.0

w h a t. "what the dark gives back / isn’t light / whoever told you otherwise / must be a handless sword" the imagery??? "I cannot explain / what the pattern is anymore / this world has more data / to take / and drop / it becomes so heavy sometimes" MY HEART???? "inside my blood / there are one thousand knives / none dangerous / none rusted either / like a zephyr moving / across a field / brutal with growth" who gave the authority to play with my heart like that?

i'm a mess of sobbing good emotions and it's because of words. i'd like to send thanks to st. vincent for being a saint and dalton day for being the hymn. everything in this tells me that everything is dark, but light exists, anyway, so don't worry. carry on.
Vintage Sadness by Hanif Abdurraqib

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5.0

honestly, you can already tell this 5 star review was coming. i read the bootlegged version (hanif thank you thank you thank you for making the book accessible for a brokeass non-american teenage girl) & i was like.... choking all the time reading it. but god AND WHAT GOOD WILL YOUR VANITY BE WHEN THE RAPTURE COMES tore me into pieces & i don't regret that at all.